I've been away from blogland for a while, as my Dad died last Monday. I had been visiting him the Sunday before and he had been fine except for a little cough. Then My Mum rang Wednesday to say he was unwell with a chest infection. She called the Dr who gave him antibiotics. But he got worse and couldn't breath so My Mum called an ambulance. He was rushed to intensive care where he spent his last three days hooked up to drips and machines. He had pneumonia. He was unconscious all the time so suffered as little as possible. The staff at the hospital were wonderful. They did everything they could for him and explained everything to us. They were all very kind, which really helped. His funeral will be held on Thursday. I still can't believe what has happened, when I see a picture of my Dad he looks so alive, I can't believe I will never see him again. He was such a lovely kind, generous person. Now I feel guilty that I didn't appreciate him enough.
-
- Saturday, 25. Feb, 2006 @ 03:38:06 pm
-
- Saturday, 25. Feb, 2006 @ 03:42:01 pm
I'm really very sorry to hear about your loss. I think that most of us don't realise just how much our parents mean to us until they are gone. My Mum and Dad both died some time ago and I still kiss then a lot, especially when something good happens and I'd really like totell them about it or something bad happens and I just want someone to tell that it will all be ok. It does get easier to deal with but the emptiness never goes away completely, but then again I don't really think I'd want it to as it keeps them alive in my mind. I hope everything goes alright with the funeral and that you don't find it too hard to cope with.
Peace, love and happiness.
-
- Sunday, 26. Feb, 2006 @ 06:00:39 pm
Deepest sympathy BB,there's nothing else I can say because I'm not good enough with words.
Lots of love, Bradders -
- http://www.v-alexander.com
- Monday, 27. Feb, 2006 @ 07:13:43 pm
Blessings to you and your family BB. I am sorry to hear what has happened. I send you support through whatever waves exist that connect all to each other.
Valerie -
- Monday, 27. Feb, 2006 @ 10:31:39 pm
Strength to you BB. It is good that you have such happy memories of your father. My heart goes out to you.
I know what you mean about guilt, but I don't think you need to be so critical of yourself. I see my parents quite often and still feel that I know so very little about them, but I think that's partly the age that they lived in and the age we grew up in. One soldiered on alone and rarely shared our burdens. I think we live in a more touchy-feely age and it's taking all of us time to get to grips with it. I'm sure he knew that you loved him.
-
- Monday, 27. Feb, 2006 @ 10:37:08 pm
My condolences. Keep strong.
CJ -
- http://www.devonwallart.co.uk
- Monday, 27. Feb, 2006 @ 10:40:20 pm
I'm sorry for you're loss and I know what youre going through, I lost my Dad suddenly last year.
You have all my sympathies and I know over the day's to come you'll feel regrets, If I'd one this or that etc.
I can't say it'll all be ok and go away soon but the bad things fade and the good times come to the fore to remind you that what time you had, even though it was less than you would've liked, was so special. -
- Monday, 27. Feb, 2006 @ 11:01:51 pm
Please accept my deepest condolences. Words don't come easy at times like that.
-
- Tuesday, 28. Feb, 2006 @ 08:20:40 pm
Very sorry to hear your news... xx
-
- Tuesday, 28. Feb, 2006 @ 08:51:54 pm
Really sorry, BB. Hope you're able to get time and space to grieve. Big condolences and prayers. x
sub -
- http://discobod.blog.co.uk
- Thursday, 02. Mar, 2006 @ 08:58:16 am
sad to hear your news BB
remember all the good times you had with your dad and it will help a lot with the grief
be strong BB - x -
- Thursday, 02. Mar, 2006 @ 01:10:38 pm
I am sorry to hear your news - my good wishes with you X
-
- Thursday, 02. Mar, 2006 @ 09:14:25 pm
I'm so sorry for your loss.
-
- http://yogini.blog.ca
- Saturday, 04. Mar, 2006 @ 03:33:39 pm
Take care of yourself BB...this must feel aweful. Warm wishes to you and yours
-
- Monday, 06. Mar, 2006 @ 09:18:06 am
May he rest in peace.
-
- Saturday, 11. Mar, 2006 @ 09:33:16 pm
Hi BB - I've only just read your blog for the first time in ages, very sorry to hear your bad news. Hope you're managing to keep it together - and your mum too. All the best from me to you.
-
- Tuesday, 14. Mar, 2006 @ 10:39:29 am
Sorry to hear that darling. My thoughts are with you.
Please be assured he is around and with you in spirit. I had a very moving experience and "proof" of this after my granddad died, and maybe you will too. Hugs!

Very sorry to hear about your loss. We all feel that - 'if only' feeling - but you obviously loved him very much - and I'm sure he would have realised that. Hope the funeral goes well - if you know what I mean. Sympathy.