Have been feeling depressed for sometime. I wanted to change my life before I was 40 but didn't really know how to do it. Then at the end of last week suddenly everything changed. At first it seemed like a change for the worse, but turned out to be great.
My boyfriend did something that really upset me, I was very angry with him and dumped him. Now I haven't spoken to him for a week. I felt upset, but I also felt free to do things I had not done for ages. About the same time, a book I had ordered arrived: Change your life in 7 day by Paul McKenna, which had been recommended by a friend. I always though Paul McKenna looked patronising on the cover of his books and never thought I would by one, but I needed to do something. It comes with a mind reprogramming CD, which I was skeptical about. But I tried it and was very surprised to find it actually works!!
I still feel in love with my boyfriend, but it is like an addiction that I need to break free from because he is not good for me and our relationship was going nowhere. As we didn't live together I felt that if did his own thing and I did my own thing we would never see each other. As he doesn't like doing what I like, I always did what he was doing so that I could spend time with him.
Now, some day's I've been feeling a little sad and lonely, but most of the time I feel happy and positive about the future, something I haven't felt for a few years!
13/04/08 @ 20:46